“Wait for the boy who pursues you. The one who will make an ordinary moment seem magical. The kind of boy who brings out the best in you and makes you want to be a better person. Wait for the boy who will be your best friend. The person who will be with you at any time of the day no matter what. Wait for the boy who makes you smile like no other boy makes you smile and when he smiles you know he needs you. Wait for the boy who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats and have no makeup on but appreciates it when you get all dolled up for him. And most of all, wait for the boy who will put you at the center of his universe because obviously he's at the center of yours.”

if you only knew...how hard it is to see me like you all see me. i wish i could be perfect, i wish i could just be how everyone wants me to be

Ingredients:

10g, low self-esteem
20g, self-control
30-40g, determination
10-15g, strength
20-30g, solitude
20g, routine
30g, secrecy and lies
20g, jealousy
30g, guilt
10-20g, tears (optional)
a dash of anger

Directions: Combine all ingredients and mix in a fragile soul. Beat until all feeling is gone. Place in a shallow bowl and serve with a tall glass of diet coke. Dish is ready to enjoy - guaranteed to disappear right before your very eyes...

if you only knew what it means

why must everyone call me a whore why does everybody tell me im ugly why do they say in too skinny why does everyone fucking de-grade me?!? why tell me? plz b/c i'd like to noe why EVERYONE in this crazy fuck up world hates on me...

ok happy?! there i am..tell me how fucking ugly i am and how im a whore! do it bitches!

ok so re-did xanga....um...the new songs playing are two of my current fav songs...they really say how i feel at this point in my life...first one blv. of broken dream [[green day]]. second one pain [[jimmy eat world]] great songs..d/l them.......um..ya i have been grounded i still am im not relli saposto be on the comp...so my updates will be weird and spread out.... well ne wayz i loove all you guys ive been having such a horrable few weeks...i hope i get outta this damn slump !! well ne ways much love to everyone i  hope to update soon..there so much going on in my life rite now i cant sum it up..ill try next time

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